Why ?

Why ? Must it be me. I mean, just cause i am the elderest, does not mean that i have to do all the work. I am only 19 a gae for enjoy and work, but i do the duties of a 30 years old man. it is nearly twice my age.

Too many responsiblities. My own work, My studies, My enjoyment, teaching brothers, taking care parents, helping both parents in thier work and business, help the rest and many more. Why ?

I just want to do my work and study. It has been really ages since i had a peacefull sleep. Each day and night have to think about so many things. -- Things that need to be done, things that dont need to be done and many more.

It is not that i am a light sleeper. But too many things in mind that makes me a light sleeper. Now it is FYP also,. Lukilly I got a good group that understands me.

But the good think is that, all this responsiblites and light sleep has made me in to a better person. A person who is more multitasking and more patience. But the negitive thing is that, my health is getting worse and worse as days past. Ever since i know responsiblities have been part of my life. Doing older man stuffs also has been part of me.

God this is very unfair. I FAT, UGLY, NOT FIT,STUPID, LAZY. with so many responsilities.
No wander i look like a 30 to 40 old man. No wander no gals want to talk to me or go out with.
GOD...........